a picture is worth a 1000 words

Already here we are in the midst of january... I have several goals for this year, one of which involves getting back into shape and healthy. This is the first time i have ever needed to watch my weight and eating habbits. I have to say it not as easy i thought it would be. I always assumed that it would require little effort. I've joined the gym and bought the 'correct' food.... but there was something missing motivation and inspiration. The mornings are what i find the hardest, it's the ringing of the alarm...that's when all your body wants to do is grab a few more mins sleep!! You justify in your mind exactly why you should be sleeping in and almost fool yourself into thinking by staying at home you could get this and that done. However deep down you know you just want to sleep in and go to work later. Fitting into my old jeans use to inspire me, somehow that slowly faded away.
A friend came over tonight and we were flicking through some old photos and we came across this picture of myself. Its as though i wanted to jump into the photo swap bodies with that girl in that picture... it didn't seem like it was me. Back then i lived in a care free world, a place where i felt comfortable and was happy with the way i looked. I was by no means perfect however i was content with who i was and how i looked and felt. Somehow looking at the picture motivated me to get back to that feeling....

Farewell 2009

It's fascinating how quickly 2009 flew from us... As i sit here pondering about what my new year's resolutions for 2010... suddenly remember fragments of 2009 where i found myself in times of hardship. Times where you really wished you had one of those remotes (just like the movie 'click') where you could simply just fastword or better yet skip to the next moment of our lives. Ever felt that way? As we begin 2010 i wonder how many of those moments will there be... moments where you just wished you could hide away from and wake up when it was all over. Perhaps those moments are the one that stretch you as person, where you will endure some pain in order to grow. I believe moments like these are pivotal in shaping who we are today.

So i look at 2010 without fear of what is to come... ready to embrace whatever may come my way...